sigh....babe has already started work at the flyer and it seems to me that because of this, things are so different from the way that they used to be. I can't help but worry about her sometimes and the fact that she isn't by my side just makes it worse. Then comes another problem..while she is at work, for as long as she is "outside" she won't be able to message me. Because of this, the number of times that she can contact me will only be so few. I'm just not used to this quietness for the moment so sometimes i unknowingly still anticipate her calls and sms-es. When i try to convey this feeling of mine to her, she would rebuke me and say that i make everyday the same..she was referring to her first day at work because at night during our conversation, i had asked her to quit and that made her sad because she felt a void in her heart when all she wanted was my support and for me to show my concern for her. I really don't know what i should do. It's like i just can't voice my own feelings. Somehow i feel that ever since she started work, things are now different. Our conversations aren't as free flowing as before and i have to watch what i say to avoid agonising her. I just wish her happiness and that she may find someone who would really know how to show his care and concern for her, whoever it may be. Whats meant to be is meant to be and what isn't will just stay that way. I'll just continue leading my life the way it is. I can't see the end but i'll just keep walking..